why cant I find a girl who is all tatted up and still looks this cute. Definitely my kind of girl #dreamgirl
So recently deciding to part ways with Fatboyz was a great decision for me. Fatboyz was beginning to weigh on me. To get the guys to work on anything was liking pulling teeth.Too much complacency, not enough motivation. I couldn’t do it anymore. I have too much material and too much motivation to just sit idly to do nothing. And to be honest I’m not happy with what we did. We had so much potential and such a good idea of what we wanted it to become but it never and probably will never come to fruition. And I will definitely be taking the mistakes we made and growing from them with my next projects. I hope the best for the the guys but am not gonna hold my breath for any videos to come out anytime soon.
So leave it to my mom to get into my head as always. And always with the same speech. You had a great opportunity, you had a scholarship, but you pissed it all away because you wanted to have fun. You want to drink with your frat brothers. You didnt work hard enough. You think I dont fucking know that?? You dont think 24 yr old Bryan isnt paying for the decisions of 19-20 yr old Bryan. Because I am. Got my first rejection letter from grad school today and it fucking sucked. Did I expect it, maybe but does it sting anyless, no. Am I happy I’m working a 10 dollar an hour job practically full time and barely able to pay my bills? Hell no. I’m struggling. And I dont need my mom in my ear nagging and bitching and yelling that nothing I do is good enough. I’m trying. And I feel like I keep failing. I can’t seem to catch a break. What do I have? I’m single, living at home, working a shit paying job, have a car that has a new problem every other week and am living in a dream world where one of my ideas will pay off. Some life. I may not have all the problems with booze and drugs my brother has, but I’m a fucking loser all the same. And my biggest fear has always been turning into him. And here I am. Not much further ahead.






